What is Love

I’ve been navigating some fairly heavy grief these last few moons. My emotional, mental and
physical realms have been in overdrive! It has required a next level kind of holding for myself, as
I swim through my internal landscape of Loss; Pain; and Grief. Holding that this too shall pass;
and that the only way out, is through feeling it all.

The Fallout

In reflection I remember this time two years ago, when everything I valued and loved fell out of my life:

My home
My job
My children
My beloved man

I chose to accept the situation I found myself in and trusted that there was meaning behind my
loss. This gave me the strength to begin on the road towards rebuilding and creating a life that felt more substantial, desirable and aligned. All the while, avoiding the immense pain I felt inside from having to lose so much, all at once, to do it.

A Mentor Manifests...

During a recent group chat with a mentor, who opened up our wisdom call by speaking to the
grief he had been feeling within, and felt others in our community were currently feeling into that
too. I immediately felt a resonance. As he led us through a meditative grounding, I felt a part of
my heart begin to crack and sweetly open. I felt the grief dissolving from my body and all that
was left behind was this spaciousness in my heart center. It felt warm, magickal and elevating…

The Divine Mirror

In those next moments, understanding and awareness came. An aha moment! Relationships
are our ultimate reflection. Our divine mirror. As I shift, I see those relationships and can
acknowledge that I sacrificed parts of myself to stay in connection with others. Sure, we hear
that you need to make sacrifices in a relationship and yet how much am I willing to sacrifice of
myself, in order to maintain a connection with others??

The Sacrifice

Another profound awakening I had about my relationships during this period was that I needed
to be more discerning when it comes to giving. I could see that in connection, in particular
intimate relationships that I valued the most, I had a pattern - or shadow - of losing parts of
myself so I could continue to show up for the person I loved. When my real eyes opened to this,
I wept.

Not only did I sacrifice pieces of myself to continue to be in a relationship, I had also allowed
parts of my character to be changed and/or be let go of; some that I really loved! I needed to take
responsibility for that shadow now. I very vulnerably and courageously made the decision at that
moment to prioritise showing up in places/spaces for others where I was being valued too.

Conscious Questions

Now there appeared to be new questions rising within me….

• How much am I willing to sacrifice, in order to stay in connection/relationship with the other?
• How much am I willing to give and/or sacrifice to love?

LOVE IS THE MEDICINE

The Yoga Sutras and Rudolph Steiner theories have long been a foundation on my life's path.
These days I weave the night sky’s astrology in and the answer to my question came upon the
Full Moon in Pisces. Listening to astrologer Kaypacha speak on this alignment, he shared his
newly gained perspective on sacrifice, love and happiness, which had come through Steiner’s
expressions of LOVE and the wisdoms to HAPPINESS from Kundalini Yoga. He had my
attention.

Expressions of Love

• Physical love: we need warmth and touch. The polarity - coldness
• Etheric affection and tenderness. The polarity - indifference and isolation
• Astral desire and passion. The polarity - rejection and disharmony
• Ego recognition, I see you. The polarity - alienation and estrangement
• Manas revelation, opening, revealing and understanding. The polarity - stagnation and apathy, meaninglessness, disillusionment.
• Buddic redemption and healing (power of love). The polarity - Illness and destruction
• Atman highest expression of love - SACRIFICE, love expresses itself through the willingness to sacrifice. The polarity - Egoism and abstraction

Wisdoms to Happiness

• Commitment - to LIFE! We were meant to commit to every life
• Character - once the commitment is made, that builds character. We become aware of our own masks
• Dignity - comes when we have dropped our masks and people can just trust us
• Grace - means there is no interference, no hidden agendas; just transparency
• Willingness to sacrifice - we are happy to give of ourselves. You can stand to be in your own
  pain for that person
• Happiness - emerges through sacrifice. It's from the sacrifice that we find our happiness. It's what makes our heart truly full.

The path of the Warrioress is filled with challenges and insights. The moment you stop looking
into the material world, you find there are deeper threads woven into this life.

Life is our initiation.
We are meant to be here at this time.
You have a purpose here and it’s to live an earthly experience.
Our value is in changing the way we look at things; then the things we look at change.

If you want to heal
Love is the medicine.

If you want to evolve
Love is the medicine.

If you want to experience love
Love is the medicine.

If you want to be in harmony
Love is the medicine.

If you want to experience Unity
Love is the medicine.

Life is sacred.
Be the Medicine. x

Dark moon ponderings,

by Milly
Protectress Clan Mother.